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You like to sit in silence But I don't know how My feelings rush the dam And it's hard to keep them out All the thoughts in my head Are emotional mush And if I open my mouth I might say too much When I finally give in It all comes out wrong So I hide in my mind Listening to my fucked up song The voices there talk shit Just like me About what I'll never have And how no one loves me I try to down them out Try to shut them up But what if they're right And I'm not enough

Not enough time Not enough space Words feel like a waste Trying to hard Not trying enough Hoping you don't call me bluff Extra sensitive to the max Always hiding behind my mask Can't tear these walls down Not just yet I'll take the safest bet No risk no gain is what they say But pain a price to high to pay Will I ever get this right So I can finally sleep at night Even though I wont catch a wink With no one laying next to me The loneliness is hard to bare It's hard to find someone who cares Love for me is just a dream And life is never what it seems Maybe I should just give up Maybe living is enough Maybe I'll retake my vow I've been li

They say diamonds are a girls best frind, but I wouldn't know anything about that. I grew up in a, not so good but not so bad neighborhood in southern California. The closet I got to diamonds is a deck of cards. My favorite is the four of diamonds, thus how I got my start. I still remember the story like it was yesterday. My sister and I were walking home that night from the ice cream shop that we frequented once a week back when everyone knew us as Melanie & Brooke. It all happened so fast; as we rounded the corner into the alley we used as a shortcut. Brooke saw them before I did "Look out!", she shouted but it was aready too late. The bat

You left me today You even didn't say goodbye I didn't know you were going It just happened all of sudden You snuck off when I wasn't home You left me today But not without breaking my heart and it wasn't just me you left I won't be the only one shedding     tears for you or wishing you'd come back You left me today and I can't be mad Can't tell you how selfish that was Tell you how that makes me feel Because you died today and all I can do is miss you.

Wanna play. a. game. oh boy do I ever I tell her though I know how this ends All tied up you'll be if you play a game with me. It will give you such a thrill to give yourself into my will Submit me to your every whim I give myself up to this fate With homornes bursting to the brim And desire that I cannot sate In round two I'll set you free and that is when we'll truly see Once and for all just how well you keep your hands to yourself You're a prize I can't resist I want you now with out delay But round two always has a twist I know what you're going to say You are not one to be tamed for everytime it ends the same You couln't wait t

Out of the darkness I have risen To see your lovely face one last time               before it fades But It’s not I who has forgotten you Surely it is you who hath left me lying                in the mud In a mixture of the ground beneath me And the crystal tears that just won’t stop         coming                I’m a liar but not to you to myself Everyday I tell myself I’ve        moved on                That I can forget you or that I already have the little white ones  that get me                 through the day Into the light I have plunged Hoping for a clean slate but          Hoping is too

Do I like you I can't decide Do I stay or run & hide Do I want you I cannot say Whether or not I feel that way As for my heart I'll have to hide it & show the world I'm undecided

Dyed green locks at shoulder length along Along with beauty ther came strength Eyes like patches of blue silk Skin so soft & smooth Beauty comes in many forms this time it's shape is human Almost perfect in every way It takes this shape four times a day.

These are the things going on inside These are the things I try to hide These are the things passing through my head These are the things that make me wish i was dead These are the things that bring me pain These are the things that happen again These are the things that will never fade This is how i know I'll never be okay

Really cool but so mysterious Fun to hang out with & yet so serious I stare at you from across the table & I wonder if I'll be able... To shut my eyes or look away Or even find the words to say. I'll always feel your warm embrace & see the image of your face stained into my memories ______________ will always be.